So I have begun one of the longest weekends ever! I am sitting in the LA Airport…with free wireless and soaking it in while I can! I am here for 12 hrs and then at 2 am we leave for Manila!!
I have never had a panic attack but I think I was close this morning. As my mom, Johnny, and I got to the airport, we pulled into the wrong parking deck. This was a classic mistake but because of my anxiety, that I had so easily covered up, I really felt like my heart was about to pound out of my chest. I decided that my stepdad could drop me and my mom off and us carry it all to the check in. This was a site in and of itself. Me, trying to lug around my 49 lb pack …but in a plane carrier and my mom with my back pack…my anxiety went through the roof. I tried to pray as I was carrying my pack but I could not form words. Thank goodness God can hear me without words. We finally made it to the carts and was able to get everything situated. I realized that I had not dealt with my emotions over the past couple of weeks. I had covered them one way or another.
