“So what’s this all about?” asked Anna, standing next to my booth, violin in hand. I told her a bit about my trip to which she responded, “Well you need to be louder! Start getting people’s attention.”
Taken aback I stuttered, ” No no, this is just my style. I want to be respectful of the restaurant owners. I just talk to people when they come to the table. It’s been working.”
Clearly unsatisfied with my response and my support raising style, Anna began loudly shouting “This girl’s going on a mission trip! She’s going to India and Pakistan!” (And for the second time in a couple weeks I had to correct someone that no, I’m not going to Pakistan). Anna then proceeded to stop people in their tracks on the narrow sidewalk. If they said they didn’t have a dollar, it was “How about a quarter? A nickel?” There were no excuses in Anna’s book and “no” was not an acceptable answer to her request to donate. And to me? A neverending message that, “You need to talk! Be louder! Start talking to people!”
I wanted to throw up. I WAS talking. Well, I was talking to the people that wanted to be talked to, right? My calm evening of fundraising (an evening that in and of itself already provoked anxiety in me) was now my own personal night of torture. My face flushed, my heart raced, and I began to pray to God. “God, please make this stop. God please make her go away. Please help my parents get here faster. Please help me know how to bless her. I know her intentions are good, God, but make her stop!”
In hindsight, I imagine God shaking his head, a sly smile on his face saying “Oh Heidi…”
Want to hear what happened? Stay tuned for part 2…
