im afraid of blogging.
there it is out in the infinite abyss.
Im afraid that what I have to say won't be important enough.
intelligent enough.
funny enough.
cute enough.
that no one will read it except my parents. (thanks guys love you)
I've been realizing that the more honest we are the more we realize we're not alone. a lot of conversations I have with friends and strangers about things they struggle with seems to have a common underlying theme:
afraid that one day you'll wake up and find yourself
not worth loving.
this is the ultimate fear.
and we have a choice, i believe, no matter how crippling and overwhelming your fear might seem be to choose to turn from it and not let it rule you. and I dont have all the answers as to what your journey toward this looks like but I believe that God is enough and if you seek after that you will find that you're worth it. and that this love is better than life. the humbling thing for me to try and grasp is that we dont deserve it. we cant earn it. the offer of unconditional love is just there on the table.
I dont fully understand but the more I trust this and live loved the more i know it to be true that God is enough.
enough to be the source of our identiy when we feel inadiqute and insufficient
enough to cover our shame
enough to speak truth into our insecurities
enough to save us from believing lies
enough when we feel defeated
enough to heal any hurt
enough to shatter the fear that you're not worth loving
because you are.
