I began a few blogs, none of which I finished because I can never seem to find
the words to describe what’s going on in my heart and the changes that God is
doing to me.
We are halfway
through our second to last month and it’s really overwhelming to think that I’ll be home soon and I still have no clue
where God is leading 
me. The Lord is
slowly closing doors but as I sit here and think about where God is bringing me
next I can’t help but reflect on where God has brought me so far.
Michael
Hindes, someone who I look up to and admire, once told our squad that change hurts, and I didn’t believe him, until I
actually experienced change. This
coming July will be 9 years from when I asked Jesus to come into my life. That day was very emotional and I will always
remember it, but prior to coming on the trip my Christian life was a lot of trying to earn my salvation. Doing the right things, spending time with
the right people, going to church, and being a part of different organizations. However, at the time I
didn’t know that I was only doing it to
try and earn my salvation. It wasn’t until last month that I really
realized that my Christian walk began when I decided to follow God’s will for
my life at training camp. Over this year
I’ve grown so much, I’ve been freed from things
that had me in bondage, and now live according to the Spirit.
mean for my future…I don’t really know. All I know is that
everything I do and will do will be according to HIS will, following where the Spirit directsme. His plan for my life is better than
anything that I could ever plan for my life. So over the next 2 months I’m waiting
patiently for God to tell me or show me where he wants me to be. I’m trusting Him even if that means I get
home and still have no clue. I know He will be faithful to me if I am faithful to
Him.
