My last blog was 3 months ago; it was titled A Broken Blessing.
I expressed how difficult it was for me to leave the race to come home because of a broken thumb.
But I said that I had a peace about it because the Lord's plans were better than my own; I was blessed.
Then God threw me a curve ball I was not prepared for.
It turns out that I wouldn't have a chance to meet back up with my squad… my D squad.
So, of course, I was broken. I was hurt, and I wrestled with God.. "what now, God? I was so sure that was your plan for me. And now its ruined. Where am I supposed to go from here?"
I wanted to trust his plans for me just like I had been saying all along, I JUST DIDN'T UNDERSTAND.
Through a long couple of months, I realized that it's okay if I don't understand.
God is a huge God and He acts in ways that sometimes we may never understand
….and I have to be okay with that.
It's trust.
It's knowing that my God has my best interest in mind.
I kept reciting the end of Romans 12:2 as a reminder "…his good, pleasing and perfect will.."
He is perfect. His plan for me is not to harm me but to give me a hope and a future. (Jer. 29:11)
But it was so hard to dive into a plan that is unseen.
But somehow, I did..
And then He called me into what seemed unthinkable at the time..
Another world race. A different squad. Starting completely over.
"WHAT? seriously, God? Is this some kind of joke?
You know how much I wanted to be back with D squad and now I have to start over?
With new people. People I don't know!"
Man, did God test my faith..
But I gave in to him.
This was my thought: Why would I fight my Daddy when He is calling me to something? Where else would I go?
I can't say no.
I got to experience another exausting week of training camp.
I got to meet 62 new amazing squad mates.
I got to step into L Squad completely.
I still dont understand.
But I say "Yes."
I will follow my God wherever He leads me.
And what a blessing that God has greater plans for me than I have for myself.
Because I am with a squad who says "YES"
a squad that will follow wherever he leads.
D Squad is amazing–
but L Squad is also amazing.
AND exactly what I need in this season in my life.
3 months with D squad. 5 months with family. 11 months with L squad. Folllowing God every step of the way.
That is my race.
Thank you for following me; My new route is Guatemala, El Salvador, Honduras, Philippines, Australia, Malaysia, Thailand, Cambodia, Kenya, Uganda, Rwanda. I would love to stay in contact with you, if you would like to help support me or just chat, please email me at [email protected]
