As I read through Henri J. M. Nouwen's book, "The Way of the Heart (Connecting with God through Prayer, Wisdom, and Silence)," the most obvious spiritual discipline I wrestle with and need is solitude with my God.
Next week, in typical Hannah-style, I am flying out to Arizona for a few days to be with my family and to be with God in the desert.
I desire God in all areas in my life, but find that solitude with Him is the most difficult. Is it no wonder, though? I relish time with friends, family, and acquaintances, but time alone–completely alone–is something I am uncomfortable with.
I am not looking to 'fix' my life while literally and figuratively in the desert next week, but I am looking at starting a mental and spiritual shift that corresponds to a pattern of time away with God in my everyday life, now in Nashville and wherever I move to.
It is funny, though, to have this tug, this longing, for something I dislike so adamantly.
What do you dislike so much that you long for in your own life?
