I constantly find myself distracted by a wide variety of activities, interests, dreams, projects, new and old friends, and simply–being busy.
I relish having an extremely busy schedule and while I have a tendency to forget how to say “no” to new projects, I am continually blessed by how and who God is working in my life and through my attempt at being faithful to Him.
Within my life, I tend to attempt to do everything and lately, I have found myself in a “good ” place in which I can see Him working and where He’d like me to invest more (and sometimes less) of my time, skills, and abilities. It is interesting to see doors distinctly open and close in my life and in my attempt to use my time and skills wisely. At times I am elated at the opportunities that arise and others, a bit mournful that what I wanted isn’t possible. This has been a ‘growing’ experience for me as I have learned to trust God that His will is perfect, regardless of what I think I ought to be doing or not doing. It is funny to me that I keep learning and re-learning this lesson–that His ways, plans, and thoughts are infinitely wiser and infinitely incomprehensible in comparison to my own. Which has been frustrating in the past to me, but now it is like a warm blanket on a cold night–there is comfort in knowing that my perspective, goals, and dreams are limited and finite. If they weren’t–then where would the hope, joy, and excitement of tomorrow and the future be? I dislike living for myself and the knowledge that His plans for my life are beyond my own plans shocks and surprises me constantly and continuously.
I like where I am at and what God is doing in my life. I keep being surprised and blessed my lessons, opportunities, people, and activities that I had no idea existed. Some may be mere distractions, but some are beyond my understanding–which I will choose to rest in. Our God is great and I am relieved that He is–I would not willfully follow a god that is simple like me.
