if i could fly through time
and choose the moments
i'd take the million chances
that i let slipped by
give it all and give no slack
to pave my dreams with intention
and to push through the clouds
soar through the storms
and towards the stars
id cry more
and laugh more
i would push aside
the things that numbed me
and really feel
face the fears
and wreck myself with it
i wouldn't back down
i wouldn't shy away
but i can't
i cannot reach back
and carve out
details that were never created
i can not turn
back the moments
to create new ones
i am here.
in the present
in the gift of life
putting down my fears
laying down what haunts me
and picking up
what makes me shake
pushing through doubts
pushing through fear
in hopes
in hopes to find You
that maybe You won't leave me hanging
leave me out to dry
that You will come through
and prove it is possible
i breathe for it
yearn for it
desire it
learn by it
come undone by it
