Last week started out as one of the hardest weeks I’ve had in a long time. It was my last week of work and the thought of having to say goodbye to the people I’ve worked with for the past 2 years was really hard. My first financial deadline was also at the end of the week and I was about $1000 short with no idea where it would come from. Sunday night I had an emotional breakdown which lasted all day Monday and into Tuesday morning.
Tuesday morning when I woke up I knew that I needed to have $1000 put into my account so that it would show up by Friday. After Tuesday it would be late and I had no idea what would happen after that. I woke up in tears and so beyond stressed the thought of having to get out of bed and go to work was pretty much not going to happen. Laying there in bed I did the only thing I knew to do, I cried out to God for help. There was nothing I could do. I didn’t have the money and I didn’t know where it would come from. BUT GOD! He is my provider. Provider of everything I need. And right then I needed peace and assurance more than anything else. After praying and giving God all those crazy emotions, I got up and started my day.
During my lunch break I was talking to a previous coworker and I saw that she had made a donation. I let her know how grateful I was and come to find out she was donating monthly. My first monthly supporter!! I was beyond excited. Then a coworker comes into the break room and hands me some folded up money. I was so lost for words I just hugged her and cried. Within minutes of each other, God was showing me how awesome He is and that He will provide everything I need! I didn’t think things could get much better but they did. As I sat back down and my coworker left to get back to work, another coworker who was in the room started asking me all these questions and telling me that her daughter wanted to help me. Here’s the thing about how crazy this is. I’ve only met her daughter a few times and the only words that have really been said where “hi” “how are you” “good” and maybe some other randoms, but I hardly even know her! I was just blown away by her generosity.
And the generosity and love didn’t stop there. Throughout the week I kept seeing donations pop up in my account. I ended the week having over the $1000 that I needed for the deadline. In one week I gave up that burden of having to do it all, trusted God and watched as He blessed me more and more each day. What started off as one of the hardest weeks ended up being one of the most blessed, because I gave it all to God. I can’t do this myself and I won’t. Doing this myself is so dang hard it’s not even worth it. “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” Matthew 19:26
