So I am going on the World Race in July 2012. Many say, "Wow! That's so exciting!" To which I think, do I tell the truth or just agree? See, I am thrilled and so excited to go on this trip. I can't wait to see what God is going to do through other people and through me! I'm also so excited for Him to show up in ways that completely destroy the box I've put him in. But some days I'm not as excited; some days I'm really afraid and pretty terrified of going on this trip. I'm afraid of what I will miss in the lives of my friends and family. I don't want to miss my brother's senior year of high school or his graduation. In my senior year of college, I sometimes find it difficult to be completely invested here with friends, family, and school, but also prepare for my trip.
I've been thinking about this a lot lately and revisiting my decision for going on this trip. Do I still think it's the best thing for me, especially when many of my friends are applying for grad. school? Well, I can't tell you that now I've found an answer and have no more doubts about my trip, but I've come to view it as a process. What I keep coming back to is what my mom always tells me when I'm having a hard time making a decision that is neither right nor wrong. She says, "If you will regret not doing it, then do it! But if not, don't." That usually seems to clear up some doubt in my mind. I would honestly regret it if I didn't go, and that is what makes me excited! I'm thrilled I'm going to do something that is SO out of the ordinary for me, that will change me, and I will remember for the rest of my life!! Life goes on, and my brother says he understands (he says he doesn't even get a diploma when he walks across the stage, so it's no big deal). 
My hope and prayer is that you will be as blessed through my trip and experiences as I will be (or even more!). I hope to share as much of my trip with you as I can – or internet will allow.
