My name is Hannah Berndt. This section of the blog is very hard for me. To be honest I’m not sure I know exactly who I am yet. I know who I am at work; I am dedicated, hard working, consistent, a go-getter and most of the time funny. I know who I am with my family; I’m funny, loyal, caring, a little “off” sometimes, the baby, the dreamer and the spitting image of my mother with my fathers heart. I know who I am with my friends; I am the planner, the wild one, the one always laughing too loud, and the one who always stands up for who I care about.
All of these things make me sound wonderful but I cant help but think I missed the point a little. I say that because I have failed to search for the most important “Who I am”. Through all the craziness of life I have forgotten to search and learn Who I am in Christ. How could I have not seen this at a younger age? How could I not realize the ever so present feeling of “searching” in life stemmed from this lack of knowing myself in Him? I could ask a million more of these questions, but I don’t think that is the important thing anymore.
Whats important is not looking backward at my mistakes, but looking forward to the possibilities He has put in front of me. The love of Christ is not an easy thing to understand, hear, see or even feel if your not open to it. I can honestly say my ears, eyes, heart and whole self are open to the Lord. I have never had such clarity in my heart as I do right now. The Lord quite literally placed the race in my lap and for the first time I heard the Lord say “Go, and I’ll give you peace”. All I could respond with was, “Here am I Lord, send me….wait.. that’s how the verse goes right Lord? ahhh you get the point, you wrote the book!”
Who am I? I am a child of God waiting so peacefully to be molded and shaped by His loving hands. I am growing. I am learning. I AM GOING ON THE WORLD RACE. Boom!
