I have reached my financial goal for December of $11,000 and now am only $3,778 from being fully funded!! If you all would like to support me financially you can through the support me tab on the side 🙂
Thank you all so much for the continued prayer and support!!!
"In you, Lord my God I put my trust. I trust in you; do not let me be put to shame, nor let my enemies triumph over me. No one who hopes in you will ever be put to shame, but shame will come on those who are treacherous without cause.Show me your ways, Lord, teach me your paths. Guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long.Remember, Lord, your great mercy and love, for they are from of old."
[Psalm 25: 1-6]
This month we have been working at El Shaddai children's home. There are about 40 children that live on the property as well as several babies. We have been working on different projects around the property, painting, cleaning, and doing homestead visits. We have all been assigned one child that we hangout with and help with homework. The property is BEAUTIFUL, the view from our rooms is a huge valley surround by mountains beyond mountains(Great Smokies pale in comparison)!
This month has not been anything like I expected, I have faced a lot of things that I never thought I would. Spiritual warfare is very real and it had dampened my spirit for ministry and also for the Lord. I wasn't getting anything out of my quiet time, I didn't even feel like I had enough energy to play with the children. There was just a spirit of heaviness among the whole squad. Here I am on top of this beautiful mountain and I can find no real joy in what I am doing… All that I wanted to do was go home or just have the month be over.
Why am I here? was the question that was constantly in my mind. Doubts would fill my mind and I just couldn't shake them.
In oceans deep my faith will stand.
We had a worship night last Sunday where we just invited the Holy Spirit to just come and fill up the place. My soul needed that awakening, God has never failed me and He won't stop now… When those doubts show up… where is my joy coming from, what is my hope in? We were challenged to break through the "ceiling" of our faith. When you feel like you've reached a highpoint keep going, know in your heart that Jesus is going to do immeasurable more in you. Break that barrier and just keep going, there is no limit to His grace and mercy. Pour out everything that you have having faith that God will fill you up with the hope and energy you need to persevere. Looking at my squad/team now I see a new hope in a Father who is beyond anything that we can imagine. I see a fire that is growing and when it becomes starved God is there to fill us up and make it even bigger and brighter!
I needed that heart check and perspective change. I went from counting down the days till we left to actually wanting to stay and pour more into the children of El Shaddai. These children love with all their hearts, and they love to spend their time with us. It will definitely be hard to leave these children and this beautiful place.
Thank you all for the continued prayer and support!
Love always,
Hanna
