"Lord, if its you," Peter replied, "tell me to come to you on the water." [Matthew 14:28]
Replace Peter with Hanna and it couldn't be more right.
Lord if its you, help me choose the right school.
Lord if its you, help me choose a career that is good for me.
Lord if its you (insert ANY situation)…you get the idea.
Its so easy to ask of the Lord but when he actually responds.. wait.. you want me to do what??
"Come," he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus.[Matthew 14:29-30]
This is how this whole process of getting accepted, and beginning this journey has been for me.
"Lord, if its you…i am taking a huge leap of faith in applying, show me that this is what you have planned for me."
Next comes the answer, like in Matthew, the Lord simply saying "Come."
There is such excitement in that moment that, you feel as though you can do anything (pretty sure I jumped around my apartment for a good hour.) Wow Lord this is what you want me to do! Not only do I get to go to all these countries.. but I get to share the light of you in some pretty dark and forgotten places.
There is that moment when like Peter, i stepped out onto the water.
Fearless.
Invincible, knowing that God was going to get me through these next months, and having full trust in my relationship with Him and resting in that.
"But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and beginning to sink, cried out, "Lord, save me!" [v 30]
Again like Peter, I begin with full confidence in the Lord. Believing that this is the path that I am supposed to take, and whatever comes my way i can overcome.
But than I become aware of the wind, whatever that wind may be.
Doubt
Fear
Worry
In this whole process I have to raise support of $15,500.
$3,500 by June 29th, and $6,500 by the end of August. This is where I begin to become aware of the wind.
Doubt that i wont be able to raise that much, fear that this isn't what I am supposed to be doing.. you name it!
"Lord, save me!"
I am Peter, sinking in the doubts and fears that the enemy puts in my way, but that is when the Lord steps in.. that is why I have to trust!
Immediately Jesus reached out his and and caught him, "You of little faith," he said, "why did you doubt?" [v31]
I am Peter, reaching out for the Lords hand, knowing full well that it is him standing out on the water waiting for me to have enough faith and trust to walk out to him.
With the Lord in this i can do so much, I can have faith that fundraising and support is going to come in, and I am going to meet my deadlines!
Without the Lord in this, the doubt and fear continues to paralyze me and I begin to sink, losing sight of what the Lord has called me to do!
So here is to stepping out onto the water, and reaching out to the Lord, not if fear that I am sinking, but in faith that I have made it to him!
Hanna
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