“God how am I viewed in heaven?” This may sound like a weird question, I mean when I first heard it I thought it was weird. However, this was a question we were told to ask God in a podcast we were listening to. So I did. This was back in Month 1 in Albania. When I asked this question the answer I got excited me but it also scared me. He said, “Haley, I see you as a loving, caring daughter, who is a warrior is ready to stand and fight.” Warrior, that was what scared me and I didn’t know why. So that happened in Month 1.
Month 2 roles around and someone just randomly comes up to me and says, “Haley, you are a prayer warrior.” Wait, what? Me a prayer warrior? Nope this girl was mistake. Prayer warriors are supposed to be these people who are highly spiritual, they are people who will pray for hours on end. They are like almost perfect people. Yeah you definitely got the wrong girl.
Fast forward to month 3 in Malawi. I was sitting outside one night with my alumni squad leader and she had a vision of an arrow going into a bale of hay. She asked me if I had any idea what that meant. It took me a couple minutes. My name actually means “bale of hay” and the arrow was well for warrior. Then she started getting a new part to the vision and it was a rope coming off the end of the arrow and the rope was going outside the bale of hay and branching off in many different directions. This one took me a while to get. However, after much thought and praying I finally understood. It was supposed to show how my prayers reach many different people. Malawi, was also the country where my prayers started getting bold and I finally accepted that maybe I was a prayer warrior.
Since month 1 of God telling me I was His warrior and month 2 of someone saying I was a prayer warrior both of these terms have come up in some way in my life every month. It wasn’t until I was on the bus from La Paz, Bolivia to Tarija, Bolivia that I finally asked God what being a prayer warrior meant in my case because like I said before I did not meet the qualifications of being a prayer warrior that I had set in my own mind. However, this is what He told me, “You’re not afraid to ask for big stuff, you have a strong faith that I will do the things you ask for.” That makes sense, I can see that.
I was so set on my own view of what a prayer warrior was and how a lot of people may see prayer warriors but I never stopped to ask God His opinion on it. However, since I did I can now actually accept this term and be okay with it. So this month for Bolivia I am praying for what people may think as impossible. Everything I am praying for is things that happened in the bible and I know that God can still do all those things so I am faithfully praying that He makes His power, goodness and love known all throughout Bolivia this month!
