Wednesday: “I
wish I knew what the point here was, I didn’t want to go on a tour of the city
tonight.” On Wednesday nights we meet at
the Kawan Center (the homeless feeding center) and we join other people from
the city to prayer walk around and find people and talk with them. This last Wednesday night, I was a bit
frustrated as the leader of our group kept on pointing out people for me to
talk to and in my honest opinion it looked as though they had not the slightest
impression that they wanted anyone to talk to. But I tried a couple of times and my assumptions were right, so most of
the night we spent walking around and our leader point out different areas of
the city. This is all well and good and
it was very kind of her to do so but I was hoping to have discussions with
people. God showed me that nothing in
His Kingdom is wasted and though I felt like the night was a waste, He kept on
reassuring me that it wasn’t.
Thursday: “It’s
my day off, and I really didn’t want to have to make any plans.” I was at a coffee shop enjoying my time just
listening to music and reading a book that I have been wanting to get through
when I had realized that I had made plans to hang out with 2 other people. Unfortunately these 2 other people were in separate
locations around the city and playing phone tag and texting back in forth got a
bit irritating. This hangout time was
something that I wanted to do but was annoying trying to work so hard at
getting this to happen. I realized I was
just being selfish and didn’t plan ahead.
Friday: “Man, this waiter sure is slow.” So this
month we have been blessed to be in a touristy city and with that there are
some American restaurants here, one so happens to be one of my favorites,
“Chiles”. So after we got done
volunteering at the hospital, we walked over to Chiles for endless chips and
sodas (not a common thing around here). As we were being waited on, our server wasn’t over excited about
checking up on us throughout our afternoon snack, gorging on chips and salsa
and endless drinks. God convicted me of
having a spirit of comparison and not thinking of a person as a person.
Saturday: “I know I probably shouldn’t be going off
by myself, especially hiking in a different country but I really need the time
away and it’s a well trafficked area.” The World Race has asked us not to go off by
ourselves. This is an extremely hard
request for me to follow, as previous WR I would have a tendency to just
venture off on days off and find some adventure. This sort of thinking/logic led me to disobey
requests of superior authority and could potentially cause a real problem if
anything bad did happen. I’m trying to
learn obedience and honoring, not the greatest example here.
Sunday: “How much oil can you really put on someone?”
At church we had a special guest preacher who happens to be a traveling
evangelist/prophet/healer who came all the way from Ghana. This was a great service and I had a unique
experience myself which I will share more in a different blog but as I was
partaking in the events happening and watching what the Spirit was doing, I noticed
that the pastor was using an abundant amount of healing oil on people, ie. Pouring
all over their heads, throwing oil at them and even made a circle around one
man. Now don’t hear me say that all of
this is crazy or totally nuts, I know I don’t understand the whole thing with anointing
oil but it seemed like he was just going crazy with it. God shared with me that it’s not of my
concern to make any judgments on that. Now I am also not saying that we shouldn’t be questioning but my
questioning wasn’t as much a question but rather judgment on a righteous man of
God.
Monday: “I was hoping not to get stuck watching the
shower area again.” Most of the time
that I have been at Kawan, I have been one of the ones watching the shower
area, which involves getting soap, shampoo, razors, toothbrushes etc for people
when they ask for it and just to make sure people don’t take forever for their
showers when we are busy and to make sure drugs are not being used. Anyways, that time has been good the first
week I was there but since this might be my last time at Kawan, I was hoping to
be able to socialize with people while they ate. My attitude was put in a foul mood because of
my thoughts. Thank God though, that He
corrected it and I was able to use that time to memorize scripture and have a
few chats here and there with people who were using the showers. He always has
a plan for things, I can choose to have a good attitude about it and believe
that God will use me where I am or I can choose to have a poor attitude and
miss out on opportunities.
Tuesday: “Just a little more sleep, it’s important to
get sleep.” This was my first thought when I was waking up. I had been making goals to wake up earlier
each morning and have time with God. Even the night before, I attempted to go to bed at a decent time so I wouldn’t
be tired. But as I woke up, even though I
got enough sleep, I messed up on my goal and more importantly time that God
wanted to have with me. I know my
thought wasn’t a bad thought in and of itself, but it was that thought that
lead me to go back on spending time with my Father. The Lord is my bread and my strength, He
alone gives me the provisions I need for the day, no amount of sleep could make
up the rest that we can get from Him.
Reflection over the week
I have done a better job this week than the first week at
not being so critical of others and giving more grace but in working on that
have found this week to be a different challenge. This week I have noticed that my thoughts
have not been “bad” in and of themselves but it’s what my thinking/logic gets
me to do that leads me astray which is the bad.
