Fundraising is way harder than I expected. When you first tell people, everyone is so supportive and excited for you to go on this life-changing trip. They say they’re so proud of you and they’ll support you, but then you don’t get any donations. Is this God’s way of saying now’s not the right time? I don’t want to nag anyone, and I certainly don’t want to EXPECT donations from people… but when you hear such genuine words of encouragement you kinda assume that the funds will be there and God will work it out.
I wish I would have started sooner. At this rate, October’s looking pretty bleak. I mean I know deep down that nothing is too big for God, but what the heck? Why all the hopes getting all up and stuff and then no donations??? (2 aunts exempt at this point). I want this. I feel that it is God’s calling for me, but now I have all of these doubts and I’m really unsure if this is going to happen at all. Has anyone even visited my blog? Does anybody read these? I can’t hold it against anyone because I’ve done the same thing with fundraising letters. You put them aside because you’re too busy, and you say you’ll get to reading it but the time never comes. Or finally when the time does come you read it and then put it aside again. “I’ll donate eventually”, but you never do. I’ve learned already from this experience that the next letter I get will be different. I’ll make it a priority to read it immediately, and I’ll donate even if I feel I don’t have anything to offer. I’ll donate $5/month if that’s all I can afford, because I know now that everything adds up and every penny matters.
I hope and pray that this mission works out. It’s not really up to me to make it happen, I can only do so much. I have to remember that God is in control. I need to let go of control and pray that if it’s meant to be God will put it on the hearts of my peeps. If not, then I hope I at least gain clarity and wisdom from this experience.
