This blog is hard for me to write. Here is my journal entry after getting back from ministry yesterday. I’m sure that by the end of the month I will have solidified and put together thoughts, but for now, I’ll just share my heart with you.
Darcie and I are sitting on the roof and the words out of our mouths every couple minutes are “God, you are so worth it! He is so worth it!!!” Derek, Darcie and I went to battle tonight. We went into 7 houses tonight fighting for the gospel of Jesus. Person after person came to us wanting prayer for healing from God…and Krishna…and Allah…and 1,000 other gods. We fought for you tonight. I have never been more jealous for you than sitting and listening to people say that they will devote their whole lives to you…if you heal them from their kidney stones. That’s not how you work! You’re worth it all—all the persecution from family, hatred from the world, all of it. Jesus, you are worth it!
Idolatry and sin have never been more evident than when I was sitting in a room with pictures of idols and other gods and one small picture of you hanging among them; or when I’m sitting amongst people coming to you only for what they can gain.
You are the one great and almighty God!
My God is not here to please you. He’s here to glorify himself because he is worthy. He has set out to bring this world back to him. He loves. And He heals. And he is so good. I praise you, God. I praise you because you are so worthy. You are deserving. Nothing, no one will ever change that. YOU ARE SO GOOD!!! And so worth everything I could ever dream of offering to you…and so much more.
I feel like a warrior tonight. I pray that I keep this passion for you past this night, month, and Race. I want to always fight for you. I want to be so in love with you that I will stand up for you in every situation. No more instances of caring more of what people think of me. My heart is yours, God. I don’t want to let anything take your place in my heart. No family, friends, self-image, nothing. My heart is yours completely.
You are so good, God. You are so worthy.
Those are my words tonight. That is my song. You are a great God and I am so in love with who you are.
I just can’t get low enough before you.
I love you!
The moon is the brightest tonight that I think I’ve ever seen it. I’m lying here thinking about how your brightness shone tonight. You were so bright. No darkness can cover you.
