Hardships
This past month has been a difficult one for me. It felt like the Devil was attacking me, trying to bring me down and just quit.
The beginning of this month started off just like every month, a little rough financially due to just paying rent and bills. Then thing started to change I felt empty inside and didn't want to wake up to go to work or care to do much of anything. I wasn't eating and I felt myself falling but not being able to bring myself up. I asked myself, "what is going on?" But I never seemed to find a answer. Was the Devil trying to get me to quit on myself and this Journey that I am about to take? So, I prayed to God every chance I could. Still no answer to what was wrong. Until finally one day at work I just broke down. I called my boss to tell him that "I have to drive anymore and I don't know what is going on with me" while I was holding in the tears. My boss said to me "Go take care of yourself first, then when your ready you can come back to work". So, I called my mom crying to tell her that I felt I had depression, she told me to call the doctor. I call the doctor and make an appointment. I go to my appointment later that week and told him everything that was going on. I was diagnosed with Depression. I'm now on medicine and starting to feel better. I also told me squad for the World Race, and they were all very supportive. It amazes me how powerful God can be. The verses my squad sent are so uplifting and have helped me get through the week. I would like to share them with you because we are all not alone!
"For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future" Jeremiah 29:11
"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10
"The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." Deuteronomy 31:8
"The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still." Exodus 14:14
But my story does not end here. Today I texted an old friend of mine to see how she was doing. I was asked who this was. Confused I responded "Garrett, isn't this Ari?" The response I got shocked me it said "No this is her sister Ari is dead." Come to find out that Ari was killed by her Ex boyfriend, who abused her to death. Ari was not only a friend but a mother to a 4 year old boy. Her sister feels responsible for Ari's death, because she left just before Ari's ex was coming over to talk. I couldn't imagine coming home to see someone in my family dead. And I pray for Ari and her family in this rough time. Everyday women, children and even men are killed by abuse. I pray for those Women and children and even men who have died from abuse or have gone through it. I cant believe someone can just beat innocent people and feel okay with themselves.
So, yes I have had a very emotional month. But I know I'm not alone just like I know the Ari and all those other people in this world are also not alone. We all have God on our side and together we can get through anything. I know we all have hardships in our lives. But remember we all are the children of God and when we stand together nothing can bring us down or stop us from our dreams!
God Bless You All !!
