For the longest time I have struggled with what to write my next blog about. Before I applied for the WR, I had all these great ideas about what blogs to make…but then it came to actually writing them. And they didn’t feel genuine.
And so I didnt write. Until tonight.
Well *deep breath* here it goes…
Do you know that feeling when you are down on the ocean floor after a large, salty wave tumbles over you, or when you are at the bottom of the deep-end after diving in to touch the bottom, and you’re holding your breath, looking up, hoping you saved yourself enough time to make it back up to the surface?
So, you start swimming quickly towards the surface, thinking you might have misjudged the distance, worried that even though you’ve done this a million and one times this summer and the last, this could possibly be the time you screw up. Momentary panic sets in.
But then you make it.
Your head breaks the undulating surface of the water and you get that breath–the one that, for a second, you thought would never come. And oh, how sweet it is. Probably the best breath of fresh air you have ever inhaled.
I feel like that right now–slightly panicked, mostly relieved, and like I’m coming up for air.
In one word, I guess I could sum up the root of this feeling: Preparation.
Finishing up with school and fundraising at the same time has been hard for me. Tests, projects, papers, extracurriculars. Sometimes I ask myself what I am doing–but I know it is one of the best decisions I’ve made, committing to the calling to go on the race. I may have momentary panic when the tests start piling up or when the funds in my account are lower than I had hoped, but my Father has given me peace. I know that He will provide in every way, over and above my needs.
In this brief moment between projects and papers, I can take the time to reflect on the goodness of God and how He has brought me this far. He has NEVER left me nor forsaken me. He has shown His faithfulness and favor to me time and time again.
So, I’m coming up for air. And what a glorious feeling that is.
“And [God] who provides seed for the sower and bread for eating will also provide and multiply your [resources for] sowing and increase the fruits of your righteousness”
2 Corinthians 9: 10
“Observe and consider the ravens; for they neither sow nor reap, they have neither storehouse nor barn; and [yet] God feeds them. Of how much more worth are you than the birds!”
Luke 12: 24
“And my God will liberally supply (fill to the full) your every need according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus.”
Philippians 4:19
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