So month 2 when we were in Swaziland one of my squad mates, Mary, told me she had a dream about me. She said in the dream I was crying and people from my team were playing the devil’s advocate. She said she had to come over and tell me to choose joy, and that was the end of her dream!
So I thought about this dream for a while (mainly because, as far as I knew, I had never been a part of someone’s dream, and I really felt like it was from the Lord). I started to make up awful scenarios where I would have to choose joy. This was also a time where God was really showing me who was important in my life. I also went through a mourning process month 2.
I actually mourned my parents. I had to realize that I have to love God more than I love them! Do you ever have those AHA! moments? Like…where something just makes since? Well today while I was at church it just clicked! Scripture tells us in James 4:8 to draw near to God and He will draw near to you. And then, in Luke 9:23 He tells us that if we want to come after Him we must die to ourselves and pick up our cross DAILY! Like, if I am not DAILY CHOOSING Him, I am choosing something else, over Him…everyday.
I do this so often, and then I wonder why my life is falling apart.
There are so many moments when I realize God does not NEED me to do anything, but instead he allows me to be a part of His plan. He chooses me! In order for me to do my part, I have to be choosing Him. So, I realize now, that I am chosen to choose. So are you. Everyday, we make so many choices! And ALL our choices have an outcome! Which ones are gonna point to Him?
