Everything in my life so far, I have been able to accomplish by working hard. I’ve graduated high school and am soon graduating college with honors. Jobs have always been attained easily. Preparing for the World Race is a completely different game. No matter how hard I work, I cannot prepare for this journey on my own power. I have to turn to Jesus and trust that this is what he wants for my life.
Romans 8:28 tells us “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”
I don’t know where the funds are going to come from. I have a deadline of $5,000 by May 13th and I’m not even halfway to that goal. What I do know, is that this is what God is calling me to. Everything in my life points to this as something that I was made to do. I am made to share Jesus with people around the world. To love them unconditionally and to leave the comfort of America to serve God and the people he loves. So I’m not going to give up. He will provide what I need, even if its not in my timing.
I don’t know why the funds aren’t here, and I don’t know what the future holds, but I do know that He is using this time to refine me. To make me more like His Son, and to me that is worth the pain. Its worth the doubt and the struggle because that is the goal. Right now the race I am running is going on the World Race, but it is truly just part of the race of following Jesus.
I’m tired. I have been trying to achieve this goal on my own power since November and it hasn’t gotten me very far. I’ve turned it over to Jesus. It is no longer my burden, if this is His plan for me, it will be accomplished. My new focus is to fix my eyes on Jesus and know that he will prepare me for whatever the future holds. 
