I cant do this alone!!!!!!!
That has been a realization that has flooded my thoughts for really the last 2 and a half months! Remember, I started the race three months ago.
I remember the day that this truth hit me and really stuck. It was January 19th, 2016, and I was in the Dominican Republic.
We were walking down the dirt street and doing a prayer walk. To say the race had been a tough journey for its first 2 weeks would have been an understatement for me. It was a tough transition for me to leave my life, and the community that I loved. While praying for the small town and walking I prayed to myself, and for the race.
I realized that the community and I had something in common. We didn’t want to give everything we had to God. For the community we were in that meant drugs, alcohol, and prostitution. For me it was my family, my comfort, and this year that will no doubly shift the course of my life. I wanted the control, but I couldn’t have it and that was a hard thing for me to swallow. I turned the corner mere seconds later to see this.
I had no words, I just had to take this picture. I don’t know why the person that placed this here did so, but I was transfixed and all I saw was the white flag of surrender lifted. I was praying for this community to surrender itself to the Lord, but I hadn’t fully done that myself. I realized that I cannot do this alone. I need my communities both near and far, and most importantly I need the Lord.
Over the past two months I have been growing immensely, and the Lord has been shaping me. It isn’t always an easy process but it is worth it, and it is slowly making me more into the man the Lord has called me to be.
Just a thought: its impossible to surrender to God and keep both hands firmly on the steering wheel of your life. At times you just need to let God steer. He doesn’t want to be in the passenger seat of your life, he wants to be in the drivers seat! The more you let him drive, the less you get lost.
He didn’t promise that it would be easy, not by any means, but he did say that he would use it.
Ever since I read Rick Warrens the Purpose Driven Life probably like 80 or 90 years ago I have always remembered what he calls “the most dangerous prayer you can pray”. The transcript simply goes like this, “Lord, use me”. I have been praying that prayer for many years, and I can see that he has used me a lot along the way, but never more apparently then now.
I have come to the conclusion that the more space you give to God to lead your life, the bigger the impact you will make for him.
Are you ready for the scary challenge? Pray the dangerous prayer, then let God into the drivers seat. Let him direct you, and just go with it. It will NOT be easy, trust me I’m speaking from at least a small level of experience. However, it will be worth it!
Ok, are you ready?
Lets pray, “Lord, use me!”
