I really feel like God has been speaking to me lately, witch is really funny, because these past few days I have felt like Im not going anywhere fast with my relationship with God, or with ideas of what I am supposed to do with my future. But yesterday morning I found my self reading all over the Bible but eventually found my self in Hebrews 11 where the entire chapter is talking about faith. I have somewhat been feeling defeated in what my plan is going to be after the race, and what things are going to look like and if those aspirations are going to be possible and everything that comes with that as well as just who I want to become as person through this whole process, and even just in life. But the thing that really started to stick out to me is the definition of faith, witch is plainly stated in Hebrews 11:1. Paraphrased, it says “faith is having confidence in that what we hope for will actually happen”. Witch was just a switch in thinking for me, until this point, “faith” had always been a slightly religious term to me and I understood that we need to have faith in Christ, but I don’t think I realized the full magnitude of the word and really just how much it encompasses. Ever sense then, just as a reminder, instead of saying the word “faith” I try to substitute it for its definition. And things then started to sound like this:
“God, I have confidence in that what I want, witch is to be an incredible man of God, will, and is becoming true”.
“God, I have confidence in that the supernatural Joy that I want from you is going to fill me today.”
“God, I have the confidence that what I pursue after the Race will be what you want, and that it will be overwhelmingly successful.”
After I tried adopting this sort of mentality to my every day life, naturally, I am beginning to trust God more. It is like the little things that used matter slowly seem to fade away and if I truly trusted God, everything is going to work out. Things like count that would fill me. Things like striving for acceptance in any one certain way, or whatever the case may be. But likewise, to have the trust in God that if these things do not happen, to understand that it is simply just not apart of the plan that God has for my life, and ultimately have faith that God has the best intentions for my life.
I have found that by daily walking in faith in the things that I hope for for some reason it just seems like something has been lifted off of my shoulders. Like the performance that was once trapping me is starting to be lifted. And it ushers in Joy that really is just pretty cool to see! This is definitely not something I have mastered, but instead really just beginning to learn, but I cant wait to try and walk further in it, and see what God has in store for me. Likewise I am hopeful to see the things that God works on inside of me by giving me a new found confidence that whatever it is that I hope for will indeed happen.
