Growing up I always imagined this fairytale life. I began planning what my life would look like at a young, young age. I wanted to be married by 23, living in an extravagant house, driving my dream car, and having our first child by the age of 25. (And those are just the beginnings of the life I planned and wanted).
Here I am today, 23 years old… I am not married. I live at home with my mom, stepdad, stepsister, and little brother. I have a nice car, but not what would be a dream car of mine. And as for a child, well…. there has to be a husband to make that happen! So many times I have wondered why. Why is it that all of my friends are in serious relationships? Why are some of my friends about to be getting married or are already married, and I’m not? How comes I’m still in school and my friends aren’t? How come everyone is living in their own place or will be pretty soon? How come I am being called away from home? Why is it that I am chosen to do this specific work? Why does God think I’m the right person for this job? Why can’t I be called to live the typical American Dream?
Over the last week, God has revealed to me the answer to my WHY questions. I don’t have the life I dreamed of because He has something IMMEASUREABLY more for me. He has something better than I could have ever dreamed of. He has a far better plan for my life than I could create for myself. I’m not married for a reason, I live at home for a reason, and I have learned that the World Race is exactly why. He knew if I had those things that it would be harder for me to follow His will and to step out in faith. God knew he was protecting me and preventing me from having to go through something much tougher. He has mapped out my life and revealed to me that the “American Dream” isn’t exactly what I want, I need, or what He wants for my life. He has a much greater purpose for me and I will rely on Him and allow Him to lead me wherever He calls me. What I have ultimately learned, is God is the author of my fairytale story, not myself.
If you’re going through a situation and you are wondering why or you desire something and God hasn’t given it to you yet, just know He is in complete control of the situation. He has something that is far greater for you and in His perfect timing He will reveal that to you. Be patient and let God lead you. (Something I have to remind myself of daily!)
