The past week of my life has been a bit of a whirl wind. Seven days ago I was living my nice comfortable life in my nice comfortable home. Today I am on day 5 in Panajachel, Guatemala, and I still find myself thinking, “How did I even get here?”
I first learned about The World Race almost two years ago. It sounded absolutely incredible, like one of those things a person always dreams about doing but never believes they actually will do. But the dream stayed with me and kept growing, and today here I am.
As I already mentioned, it is still a little crazy to me that I am actually here. After hearing from former World Racers, our coaches Tom and Cindy, and the Mike Hindes (director of The World Race), who are all here with us in Guatemala as we prepare to head out, it is starting to sink in a little. At times I find myself thinking, “Oh Lord, what have I gotten myself into?” This whole process is more than a little terrifying, yet it is also incredibly exciting. We, as I-Squad, have the opportunity to go out into the world and be used by God to make a difference! We have the opportunity to love people that no one else takes the time to love and share the hope that they can find in Jesus Christ alone. Wow!
It is amazing to me how God has brought our team together to go on this Race. He has a plan and a purpose for us and us alone. He could have picked anyone else in the world, but He has chosen US! What’s even scarier is that He has chosen ME! I feel so inadequate, so unworthy, so unprepared. And I’m not gonna lie, but I’m scared out of my mind! I am scared that I will mess up, scared that I am not strong enough to do this, scared to leave my home, family and friends, whom I love, behind for 11 months. I know that I can’t do this on my own, but praise the Lord, He’s coming with me! He will be my strength, my comfort, my rock. He is the one who will carry me through. He is the one who will do His thing even when I feel tired and broken, like I have nothing else to give.
Ready or not, here we go!
