I’m starting to think that I need to make a sign to wear with two sides.  One side says I’m fine, I’m not upset, I just need alone time.  The other would say…Would somebody hold me?  Realllly having a tough time NOT being alone on the race…people…people everywhere…aaaah!  I have freak out moments several times a day where I wish I could just hop in my car Shikara, crank up the radio and drive off.  Not because I necessarily hate humans or anything…but man alive…I just need a little “me” time.  I think God’s preparing me for momhood someday…you know where mom’s lock themselves in the bathroom to try and get 2 minutes alone while their toddler is shouting Mommy, where are you?  Trying to keep things in perspective but if I hop off the plane month 11 and I’m in a straight jacket…this might be why.