Do you remember the first time you said a a word that SOUNDED like a bad word… and how people looked at you in shock or horror?
And well-meaning or not you tried to say something and it came out very silly or inappropriate?
When you agreed to give up something up as a New Year’s resolution and lasted a day?
Telling a child to keep their hands to their selves while on a very long road trip…or how you'd have your hand an inch away from your brother or sister saying…I'm not touching?
Trying NOT to say or think about something only to be completely obsessed about it…like chocolate cake, soda, someone's facial features or outfit, checking Facebook to see if a love interest has posted?
Impulses, Weaknesses, Humanness, Flesh. STRIVING.
So here I am…
– I'm NOT talking about M$N$Y or how I still need $X,XXX to be fully funded.
– I don't feel at peace to plan additional F$NDR$$S$RS yet…although I know in my heart I am heading to 11 countries in July and probably should be considering some at this point.
– Dream Big Apparel? Blessed T-shirts? TOH Bracelets?
– Asking folks to donate $XX on the XXth of every month?
– Revisting the Trivia Night idea?
– I have XX lovely Acacia Necklaces made by women in Uganda and Rwanda that I'm trying to sell to support my mini-mission trip to Haiti with Visiting Orphans…but should I be sharing this with people? That if I sold these XX Necklaces I would only need $XXX yet for my Haiti trip?
These are things I ponder…not asking for M$N$Y stinks…but I'm going to continue to keep following you Jesus until you show me what it is you want me to do / not do. The money, the trip, its Yours…and I'm Yours trusting and wavering and falling and questioning….HERE I AM!
So if you happend to suffer through this paticular blog post…I'd love your ongoing prayers…because the only thing that makes sense is….
PRAYING, ASKING, SEEKING!!!
