This is my last journal entry and I wanted to share it with you all.
Lord,
I am hurting, you know that full well. I know You have gone before me and I thank You for that. My heart breaks every time I enter my apartment. Lord protect me from all the hurt I am enduring through the silence. I pray that my roommates will know You. For you are the almighty healer. Thank you for becoming flesh and bearing ALL my sins upon the tree. I pray that Your light shines brighter in me than ever before. I feel broken apart from my two roommates. I pray for Your Holy Spirit to consume my thoughts and that those thoughts out pour into words. I thank you for your redemption for without it I would be blind with sin. Lord, I hope that I be able to have a pure heart around them. Lord, after all I am Yours! Consume every step, every word, every breath I breathe. Fill me up so I can pour out your love onto them. Thank you for putting trial in my life because it makes me realize how much I truly need You in my life. I hope that my heart not be hardened by those times, but that it be spurred on with joy to serve You more fervently. Lord, I want to follow you even more! I lift this up in the name of the man who gives me a reason to live, JESUS; amen!
In Matthew 10:16 it says, "I am sending you as sheep among wolves."
In my walk with the Lord I have been filled with unexpressable hurts. Looking at Matthew 10:16, I am overjoyed because I know that the Lord has called me to trial.
May you be comforted by the following verses from Psalm 119
1 I love the LORD, for he heard my voice;
he heard my cry for mercy.
2 Because he turned his ear to me,
I will call on him as long as I live.
3 The cords of death entangled me,
the anguish of the grave came over me;
I was overcome by distress and sorrow.
4 Then I called on the name of the LORD:
“LORD, save me!”
5 The LORD is gracious and righteous;
our God is full of compassion.
6 The LORD protects the unwary;
when I was brought low, he saved me.
7 Return to your rest, my soul,
for the LORD has been good to you.
8 For you, LORD, have delivered me from death,
my eyes from tears,
my feet from stumbling,
9 that I may walk before the LORD
in the land of the living.
