Some of you might read the title of this blog and think I’m crazy, and that’s okay. I’m not going to lie, lately I’ve been feeling a little crazy. A year ago, I would not in my wildest dreams imagine what I am about to share. But today, I am not the same person who once chose to walk in brokenness. I am crowned a Princess of the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords and He has set this captive free!
Here in Mozambique, I am finding myself with more than enough down time. We wake up, eat breakfast, do our morning chores, teach classes, eat lunch and then have the remainder of the afternoon to hang out with the boys, spend time with each other or have alone time. I’ve been spending about 50% of that alone time in [prayer].
Praying was once something I would only do before bed but would fall asleep halfway through. Within the last nine months I have found that praying while showering proved to be the best use of time for my multi-tasking mentality.
I knew going on The World Race would grow my faith; I just didn’t realize that it would happen week one.
You see, I am surrounded by powerful women of God. I am in awe daily to be in the presence of these women, hear their stories and learn from their faithfulness. But it can also be frustrating. Frustrating to me as I tend to compare myself to others [a lot]. I have a relationship with Jesus but it is lacking in {intimacy}. It is something that I didn’t realize I was missing until I surrounded myself with a community of Godly women.
They hear God speak to them. They see images or visions. This was a foreign concept to me but I have learned that it is possible if you’re relationship with the Lord is strong in intimacy.
Last week I went off for some alone time, you know, to let God in on my frustrations. (FYI, He already knew). I yelled at Him, “Where are you? I want to hear you!” I cried to Him, “I want more!”
A huge gust of wind blew over me as the sun began to set. I heard Him say:
“I’M RIGHT HERE! CALM DOWN. BE PATIENT.”
“And without faith it is impossible to please Him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that He exists and that He rewards those who seek Him.” – Hebrews 11:6
