I have been contemplating for a while what this blog should be about… I want to update everyone on what ministry opportunites GOD has allowed my team to have this month but that is not all this blog is about.
Our team had the honor of serving in Azua a small desert town in the Southern part of the Domican Republic. We taught English to kids and adults, taught volleyball and basketball to youth, taught Children´s Bible Study, helped plan a street Church Service which was excellent and a lot of other things. The most important part of the month was how the people ministered to us. The families we stayed with did not have a lot but they were more than willing to share. They went out of their way to make sure we were comfortable. Many of my teamembers including myself realized how selfish we were by living with such selfless people. I realized how self centered my life had become, everything was all about me, my comforts, likes and dislikes. I struggled with the food, language barrier and almost everything for a lot of this month but that was due to the fact I was so focued on the fact that things were not the way I wanted them to be. I finally realized a couple days ago that this life is not about me, this mission trip is not about me… it is about serving GOD and HIS PEOPLE. The reason I came on this mission trip was to be stretched and to fall in love with Jesus and be enwrapped in the Holy Spirit and that is not going to happen unless I let go of my selfish ways and selfish desires……. GOD has a better plan than I ever had and I have learned that several times in this life and I want HIS will not mine.
GOD I lay myself down right now… I want to die completely to myself and be filled with your love, your grace. I want to see ALL people the way you see them throught the eyes of unconditional love. I want you to change me each and every day to be more like you… I don´t care how painful this transition is going to be I want it to happen. I didn´t come on this mission trip to be comfortable.. I came to be pruned and transition to the person GOD wants me to be.
GOD I didn´t give my all in the Domincan Republic because I was so focused on myself and I´m sorry for that. I promise you it will not happen in Haiti.
I was looking at a picure I took and it was of a dusty, rough road that led to a beautiful beach. As I looked at that picture I realized GOD is transforming me by taking me down the road less traveled. It is not pretty and smoothly paved road but it is the road neccessary to transform me into the person you want me to be.
GOD I´´m ready take me down the road less traveled and make me into the person you want me to be. I don´t want to go back to the States the same person I am today… I want to be unrecognizable to my friends, family and myself.
I wrote this as a blog and not just a journal entry so you my friends and family will keep me accountable and pray for this for myself, my team and my squad.
I LOVE YOU ALL AND THANKS FOR ALL THE EMAILS and Prayers. I will try to respond to them asap.
We are heading to Haiti for the month of February to help with door to door evangelism and running a Children´s Bible Study. I am really excited. Please pray GOD is exalted through us in February. We want people to see GOD and not us.
I am really big on birthdays and GOD has granted me the best present I could ever ask for… the honor of serving him and dedicating my 2009 to HIM. It is an honor and privelege that I don´t want to waste…..
