After a long day, I often like to sit down and unwind with a good movie or TV show before going to bed. As I was scrolling through my Netflix account tonight looking for something to watch, I came across one of my favorite movies from my childhood: The Prince of Egypt.
If you have never had the pleasure of watching this movie, it’s basically an animated version of the story of Moses from the Book of Exodus and immediately I was like “YES! I’m so watching this!”
I have seen this movie countless numbers of times and every time I’ve watched it, it’s told the same story that I’ve heard countless times before. But this time, something stuck out to me in a whole new way. It was during the scene where God first appeared to Moses as a burning bush.
When I picture Moses, I usually think of how he performed incredible miracles, delivered his people from slavery in Egypt and helped lead them to the Promised Land. I was a little surprised by the man standing before God in this scene. The man standing before the great “I AM” in the cave that day was a man who was scared, doubtful and full of excuses. He wasn’t the Moses I usually think of… He was like me.
“What if they do not believe me or
listen to me and say, ‘The Lord did not appear to you’?”
Exodus 4:1
“Pardon your servant, Lord. I have never been eloquent,
neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant.
I am slow of speech and tongue.”
Exodus 4:10
“Pardon your servant, Lord. Please send someone else.”
Exodus 4:13
Even though I have not launched yet, I can already tell the World Race is something that causes you to constantly go outside of your comfort zone in every kind of way. I would be lying if sometimes I didn’t struggle with the same doubts that Moses had.
“What if I can’t raise enough money to go?”
“Am I really qualified to be a missionary?”
“How am I supposed to blog when I am hate writing?”
And as strange as it sounds, it is not the first or second doubt that I have been struggling with lately. I know that God is faithful and he will provide the money I need to go (if it is his will) and I know who I am in Christ. I know that he has redeemed me and has instilled a passion for missions in me that cannot be questioned.
But blogging??
I never really anticipated how hard blogging would be for me when starting my Journey on the World Race. At first I was excited to hopefully be blogging a few times month and keeping everyone updated with my journey but I feel like that excitement faded pretty quickly. Many times in the past couple months I have opened my laptop only to find a blank Microsoft Word page staring back at me and after a few minutes, I would close it and tell myself I’d do it tomorrow.
The excuses that I have made for the past three months have been endless. The problem with blogging is that is not easy for me. It takes time that I usually tell myself that I don’t have and effort that most of the time I just don’t want to give. It really sounds so selfish when I say it all out loud but to be honest… I really do not like writing. But tonight I was reminded of something really important. I was reminded that following God is not always so easy, fun, or what you would LIKE to do.
Moses straight out asked God if he could send someone else in his place! He didn’t want to go out of his comfort zone but God had a plan for his life. God knew that through His power, Moses would be able to rise up and become everything that he never thought he could be. Everything he never thought he wanted to be.
All for the glory of God.
Going on the World Race is not what I planned on doing in life, but it’s what God planned for my life to do. To help people around the world come to know His great love. To serve others by ministering to the broken, needy and poor in spirit. To constantly go out of my comfort zone, even if that means writing a few more blog posts here and there.
My prayer is that during this next year on the World Race, God would help me to let go and trust him with every part of my being. And through that he would begin to transform me into the person he desires me to be and lead me to where ever He has planned for me to go, just as he did for Moses.
Your will..
nothing more
nothing less
nothing else
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord,
“plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
Jeremiah 29:11
