Short, sweet, and impromptu. This is the first blog I've written that I didn't think about for days beforehand. I was going to write a long facebook status about it…but I decided I'd rather blog about it.
Something has happened. Suddenly. And I'm not really sure how to explain it.
The past few weeks I've felt so anxious about leaving for The World Race in July. I've actually been more excited about coming back next June.
About a week ago, I realized how comfortable I am. I have my family, my church, and the greatest friends I could ever ask for. Why would I want to leave this? Its so comfortable. And that's when I heard it, "That's exactly why you must go."
I can't say I've ever really had the serious thought of not going through with the race, but that doesn't mean that I was overly excited either. Like I said, I was comfortable, and I couldn't help but want the next 4 months to go as slowly as possible.
Until yesterday.
I was at church, and the topic of my trip was brought up, and I was sitting there, listening to everyone else talk about how amazing it was going to be. They talked about how they were excited to see the differences in me when I came back. They talked about the people I was going to touch.
And that was it. The steel to my flint. The spark was back.
Right before I wrote this I watched a video that one of my squadmates posted on our facebook page. It was put to the song "Kings & Queens" by Audio Adrenaline, and it was just a slideshow of pictures from a previous racer. That song, along with all the faces of the children in those pictures, was just kindling to my fire.
I can feel it. The excitement is back. I'm still scared. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't. But I know that God has big plans for me. And I'm so grateful for this fire he's started in my heart.
Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?” And I said, “Here am I. Send me!” Isaiah 6:8
