Before you start reading, click on this link (it’s not suspicious, I swear): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_CTYymbbEL4 this will make sense by the end of this post (if you know geography). Trust me.
Relying on other people is not one of my strengths.
I would far rather be relied on, than have to rely.
I like being strong for others, I like to have people lean on me.
I don’t like leaning.
I’m not even on the mission field yet, but already, this life -which I’ve barely stepped into- has taught me so much (and as with everything in life, things come so quickly and in such rapid succession that I hardly have time to truly learn from them, so for right now, I’m simply being *taught*).
I’m not working. I haven’t worked in five and a half weeks, and I’ve never not worked. I’m being taught how to be at peace with this, to be content with all the free time I’ve been granted, to be industrious, to continue to work hard in spite of having no true job to complete.
I’m uninspired. I haven’t written a word of my book since I left home, and I’m being taught that -hey, it’s okay. Maybe I’ll get inspiration tomorrow. Maybe it will come three months own the line. Or maybe I’m not meant to touch my book until this journey is over.
I have to rely on the generosity of others for everything. For rides places, for wifi, for my bed, for food, for coffee (thank you, Ratzlaff’s, I am blessed beyond words to have you for family), for malaria meds (thank you, Dad, you my hero <3). I’ve had to rely on others for funding for my trip. I’m still learning how to be gracious in my acceptance of this, I’m still being taught how to live in a world where things are no longer so much “receive and give back of equal or greater value,” but rather “receive and just say thank you.”
I’m being taught how to study the bible without someone teaching it to me.
I’m being taught how to be comforted directly from God’s word, rather than by someone else’s translation of it
I’m being taught how to wait on Him for vision, and how delightful it is to live in the knowledge that vision will come!
Oh, and in a side note:
For month 1, Team Hinematov will be working in Belgrade, Serbia! You heard correctly. I may, at some point, stick my toes in the Danube. While listening to “the Blue Danube.” (See? Told you.)
That’s all!
Much love!
