I long to have faith like Ezekiel, trust like Daniel, and Bravery like Peter. I am present in this place that longs for redemption. Thailand faces the heavens, but won’t claim it’s father. I am sitting, waiting, and hoping for something big to come from the Father onto his people. I am waiting for a moment where words don’t have to be used, but everyone can see his Glory. I’m waiting for Bhudda to be crushed in the earthquake of the Lord’s voice. I’m longing to see his kingdom brought to this place.
Why do I wait, when I have his power within me? Why do I sit, hoping or wishing the Lord will move and make something new? The Lord is able to work in any way he pleases. He is all powerful and all knowing. In scripture, most of the ways he shows up is through his people. Most of the ways he chooses to work is through his children onto nonbelievers. Something I wonder about myself is; why do I read these stories but never apply them to myself? I used to say that the Lord might put me in shoes like Daniel, Ezekiel, or Peter. He will call me to the hardest places, to bring the best news. He has done this, and now I am here. I am here with his power, his faith, his trust, his bravery, his boldness, and his name. I am here with everything he gives me, and equiptes me day in and day out. I stand souly in his presence, simply trying to be aware of what he wants from me. To do his will, I have to do my part.
Solitude with the Lord and asking him for these gifts to further his kingdom, will give me exactly what I need to do that. At this moment in time, I am beginning to pray for the Bravery like Peter. The moment when the Lord called Peter out into the waves holds such an soft place in my heart. I had a vision a few months ago of Jesus in the water, calling me out from the boat. His arm was stretched out to me, and his palm was open to except me. I stood on the edge of the boat and looked into his eyes with fear. The waves were so high, and so large. They crashed against the boat, and sprayed my fearful body. I never stepped out. I stood on the edge and saw the promise in his eyes, but was not ready to trust it.
A few days ago my whole squad gathered in Pattaya for a debrief week. We were in a session, and the staff asked us to do a listening prayer excercise. I have always been hesitant of this, but during this time I realized that I have been doing “listening prayer” for years, I had just never put a label on sitting in the Lord’s presence and listening to him. We were told to get into two circles. One circle was the inside circle, and one circle was the outside circle surrounding the people on the inside. The outside people closed their eyes as the inside people found someone on the outside to put their hand on. My friend prayed as my hand was on his shoulder. He never opened his eyes to see it was me.
He spoke out to me what the Lord had layed on his heart. He told me that the Lord wanted to remind me of his gentleness. That in the Lord’s voice, there is so much gentleness. My friend saw a vision related to the story between Peter and Jesus. With his gentle voice, Jesus spoke and SILENCED the waves. My friend told me that even though the waves may be high or rough, the Lord’s voice is enough. With his gentleness he will bring peace, and I can trust that. This vision that the Lord gave to my friend to tell me, was something I needed immensly. I needed to see the end result of what I had previously seen. I needed to know the trust between the Lord and I is real. I needed to feel his still small voice, his gentle whisper. His power is glorious, and I continue to stand in awe of that.
I am thankful for the faith of my friend. I am thankful that he allowed himself to be a messenger, to build me up in my faith. The Lord works in amazing ways. I had never shared my vision with my friend, but the Lord did, and he put an end to it. God engulfed me in the confidence of his name in that moment. I realize now that I may have fear in trusting him, surrendering everything to the maker, or being obedient, but his still small voice will reassure me of his presence.
“Come,” he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus.” Matthew 14:29
Jesus is calling me into this trust, this intimate relationship with him. He is calling me to have bravery like Peter, trust like Daniel, and faith like Ezekiel. I will run full force into his arms, to gain everything he has for me. A wildfire burning inside of me, is something I will gladly live with my whole life. Zeal for Jesus Christ is in my grasp. I am ready to walk right towards him, as he silences the waves of this life.
