Your praise will ever be on my lips, ever be on my lips.
My life is spinning, whimsical and all at once. People I care about, I catch myself getting lost in their eyes while picturing the day I will have to say goodbye. This week is full of lasts that dribble out the words Goodbye, farewell, and I hope you have a nice life. All of this is great, because it turns the page to a wonderful new chapter of my life. The only problem with that new chapter has been one thing, “Am I equipped to do this?” I haven’t had the kind of funds coming in, to support me on this journey. I am finishing a huge part of my life right now, and it is hard to equip myself for the next. I tried to trust the Lord, and I called out to him for guidance and help. I longed for his merciful hand on my mission, because without him their is no point. I knew that if this was his will, and I was doing what I could, that this would not fail. He would not be calling me to ministry, and not provide. That is unlike my God.
Tonight, I sat down at my desk. Scraps of paper and calligraphy pens scattered the table top. I did not sit down with the intentions to check my funds, but God had that intention. Last time I had looked my goal was less than 25% met. My current goal reads 56.32%. Something in me just broke. Tears started falling, and at that moment I was reminded that my God is real. He is alive and doing miracles in my life. I was down, and not sure if going on this trip was still an option for me. God is something, really something. He knew exactly what I needed. I have a $1000 donation from an organization that I do not know. The Lord is sending angels, just so that I can go. I love the God that I serve. He reminds me of his beauty, and his grace each day. This is just one example of why I sing to him, “Your praise will ever be on my lips, ever be on my lips.” There is no other I would rather praise.
