He gets me everytime….

It's a shame that after everything that God has done for me I continue to doubt his goodness, and the call he has on my life.

I am sitting at work…. freaking out.( Which I have been doing for a number of days now)
Looking over deadlines and things.
I have about $600.00 raised.
I have to have $3,500 by October 1st.
$2,900 in less than 2 weeks.

Me: "God, I don't know if I'm going to make my deadline. I mean, I feel like you have called me to do this but…. know I'm not too sure. I have to raise $2,500 dollars in such a short period of time. I'm freaking out here!!!!"

Nothing.

Me: "God, what if I don't get all the money? I moved back home from college. I am going to look like such a failure!"

Nothing.

Me; "God, what if I just screwed everything up?"

"Emily, don't worry."

Needless to say I still wasn't convinced. 
Then I get the urge to go check my online account.

BAM. 

$2,500 in my online account! Between three people I got over $1,900 dollars.
And all I hear in the back of my head is…

"Told you so."

Then over the next week I raised over $1,000 dollars from selling my shirts, bracelets, and from the lunch I served at my church on Sunday.