Hmm what do I say? Where do I start?
There is really soooo much to share, but I will more stories later on.
So, training camp has been A~MAZ~ING!!!
Why??
1. Because it makes going on The Race more of a reality.
2. Because we are being split into our small (6-8 people) teams.
3. Because I’ve been encountering God.
Being here at camp has been a blessing because it has allowed me to have deep conversations again….which I really needed and had forgotten how much I needed them. And more importantly, spend time with Jesus. Here is a glimpse of a story from camp.
The very first night I got here, the Lord just spoke to me. No time wasted, let’s get to business! So we were in worship (led my Jonathan David Helser……look him up!) and we were singing a part of a song that talked about how God never gives up on us. One line in the song said something like “Your love never stops chasing down my soul.” And when we were singing that it was like the Lord said to me,
“You are Sought After.”
Oh it was so sweet to hear His voice again. So sweet to know that He sees me and hears my cry. When He said that, Holy Spirit reminded me of a verse in the Bible.
The Lord has made proclamation to the ends of the earth:
“Say to the Daughter of Zion,
‘See, your Savior comes!
See, his reward is with him,
and his recompense accompanies him.’ ”
They will be called the Holy People,
the Redeemed of the Lord;
and you will be called SOUGHT AFTER,
the City No Longer Deserted.
Isaiah 62:11-12
What delight to have a word and have a Scripture to treasure in my heart. Those two words have stuck with me alllllllll week: SOUGHT AFTER.
So I asked,
What Does It Mean TO ME To Be Sought After By You, God?
This is what I wrote:
“It means You really want me. You, God, really desire ME! You have gone to the deepest places just to reach me. You have gone through Hell to have me. You have won me, after a long battle for me. You have experienced pain for me and more & ALL because You, God, want me!!! I’m not just another girl who loves you—I am one You have specifically sought out & gone the distance for. You want me. You, God, want me to come near to You. You like it when I’m near Your heart & joyful in Your Presence. You like all the different aspects of who I am. You want me & You pursued me!”
It just really made sense that God has pursued me. He didn’t just call me and leave me in my stubborn state. No; he loved me too much. He actively sought me out
even when I ran away,
even when I hid,
even when I tried to disqualify myself from Him.
He just kept on SEEKing ME. He looked for me specifically. He put effort into actually finding me, because I matter to Him. He sought me out!
And He does the same for you. He has called your name. He has beckoned you to come closer to Him. And maybe you can’t hear Him from all the craziness around you. And maybe you can’t see Him running after you…behind your walls of Fear & pain & rejection & pride. Oh but He is seeking you out. He has and is going through everything you throw at Him, because He wants you. He wants to hug you. He wants to know you for who you really are. He wants you to be near to Him. He has been and is looking for you. You aren’t just hanging out loving Him. Rather He is actively pursing you with passionate zeal! He wants you. And really…….there’s nothing you can do about it. He wants you and wants to love you deeply.
