Until our departure to Malaysia on Tuesday, my squad and I are experiencing month one debrief. Basically what that means is that we are reflecting on our ministry here in Manila from this last month and entering into some serious bonding. Our coaches and mentors are here to evaluate how we are doing and to make sure our feet are on the right paths to have the most meaningful ministry in the months to come. 

One of the areas they are really pushing us to grow in is the area of vulnerability both individually before God, but also with each other as we all strive to deepen our relationship with the Father. During session the Lord really laid some words on my heart for my squad that I will also share here.

 

 

It is the list that has no stop

The endless exclamations of what I cannot do

 

I can not sing

I can not dance

I can never deserve a second chance

I can not love

I can not teach

True community is out of reach

I can not grow

I can not share

There is no-one who will ever care

I have no hope

There is no Grace

God will never reveal his face

 

And you will never survive this race

 

Ah, hello Satan

Do you think I don’t know your voice?

I will no longer believe you

But believe me, you will never be my choice

 

One second away from my father is too much to bear

One moment without his love would cause my soul to tear

 

Oh, and news flash Satan

I pity you

You have already lost

You are a dying beast lashing out with weakening claws

You strive to destroy anything and everything you can

 

But you will not destroy me

You will never drag me from my King

 

You fate is already sealed

Your pride keeps you from seeing your mistake:

Every wound you inflict upon me, God will use to make me stronger

Every lie just makes me marvel at being His chosen

 

His love is louder than your ever whisper

Stronger than all of your armies combined

More expansive than all of my insecurities

And more powerful than all of the hate bombarding me from without

And consuming me from within

 

Satan your end is upon you

My King is here!

As his servant, as his soldier, I will boldly march forth

 

I take up my cross

I follow my Lord

Until he returns

Or calls me home

To whatever end

 

I will follow my savior

I will follow my soul

My Jesus

 

Oh and Satan…

MY GOD REIGNS

 

 

 

God is calling us in deeper; begging us to go farther. But all journeys begin with a single step and often that step is letting go of our sins. Letting go of our shame and fully accepting the power of God all-encompassing Grace in our lives, right now V-Squad is at that first step. Through the pain we are seeking and eternal gain. What shame are you holding onto in your life, what walls are keeping you from a deeper relationship with the Father? There is freedom in vulnerability and salvation in forgiveness. There is nothing that is too big for our God.