As Training Camp approaches (just 2 weeks away) and September launch draws closer, I keep finding myself wondering what on earth I have signed up for. I've made list after list of things I need to buy, some of which need to be purchased within the week, but every time I think about shopping I get exhausted just looking at the lists! It's times like these, times when I feel all to unprepared for living out of a backpack for a year, where I start to wonder if God called the right Emily Hartman.
Here is something I wrote March 3rd of this year, where I acknowledge that same fear. I had flown up to Alaska for my spring break (you mean most college students don't leave 60 degree weather for 19 degrees on their spring break?) and luckily it overlapped with the start of the Iditarod sleddog race. I headed out to the starting line at probably around 7 am, it was, at most, 19 degrees plus windchill, still a little dark out, snowing, and I was the only person outside, but I couldn't have felt more at home. i wrote this while waiting the 3+ hours for the event to start:
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As I stand right at the start of the Iditarod, I can't help but think of how blessed my life has truly been.
Just the fact that I have such an attachment to a place still largely unaltered by human hand is amazing. Let alone, having the opportunity to visit and stand at the start of one of the States greatest races.
That alone shoudl be enough, but even still God has called me to be a part of this amazing mission called the World Race. I'm not sure why He has chosen me, and I'll admeit at times I think He called the wrong girl, but I know that He has a plan for my future. He knows better than I where my life will go and what is best.
And I should have unwavering faith in that. Just based on the fact that before I was born, before I had any control over my life, He brought me to this amazing state. he gave me a connection to a land that I will forever be in awe of.
So who am I to question His sanity as He leads me on this adventure?
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I'm still not quite sure what God's plan for me is throughout the coming year, but when things get too overwhelming I find assurance in knowing that this is where He has called me to be, and maybe that's all I really need to know for now.
