So I do not really know how to blog so here we go. I created a Facebook event about my trip so hopefully that spreads the word around Facebook. I am also going to make a Facebook page soon. Well, I have to raise $3,000 by next Saturday in order to go on this trip. Fifteen hundred has to be in my account and the other $1,500 can be in pledges so I am trusting deeply in the Lord right now. I know that one and a half weeks is not very much time to raise this money, but God is amazing and He is our provider even when we do not know what is going to happen and may be weak in faith. It amazes me the way the Lord works and how He encourages us even when we may be doubting. I have been countinually seeking God's will throughout the process of going on this trip and I know that God has opened doors for me and that this is the right time. But when I was "seeking" God's will I was seeking a definate and final anwer that I should or should not be doing this trip without accepting that God does not often lead by definitve answers. I did feel peace about accepting the trip, but after I had made that final decision I began to second guess myself. What if I was wrong and this is not what God's will is? What if God does not provide? Well, tonight I went to a Bible study and when I arrived I said to the Lord it would be really awesome if this study was about faith, because having faith that I am doing God's will and having faith that God will provide is very difficult for me. But God, knows all, knew that an even better topic for us to talk about tonight would be knowing God's will. My first thought was oh no, God is going to reveal to me through this that I am not following His will and I went about finding His will the wrong way, but it was exactly what I needed to hear. It was a reminder that God does not show us His entire plan for our lives, but if we are following Him, living for Him, spending time in prayer and seeking to have Him first in our lives and simply allow Him to lead us we will get where He wants us to be and nothing we do will ultimatly foil His plans. It was definatly an encourgement and reaffirmation for me in my weakness that I do not need to have God's game plan I just need to live for Him day by day. I would appreciate prayer that I will continue to have faith in the Lord that He is guiding me and He will provide for me. "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
