Quote:
“You can never cross the ocean unless you have the courage to lose sight of the shore.”
What this means to me:
-Until I decide to fully give my life to God, step out of my comfort zone, and lose sight of what is known, I will never be the person that God intended and I will not be where he truly wants me to be.
-"I will never be fully satisfied unless I have the courage to let go of MY plans and trust in God."
I have always asked myself what it would take for me to fully give my life to God. What will it take for me to stop living by my plans, and what I want for my life? What will it take for me to fully trust God every step of the way? As much as I want to say that I have a perfect relationship with God, I do not.Everyday I am challenged with different obstacles. I am given the chance every morning when I wake up, to give my struggles and worries to the Lord, but for some reason this does not come easily. We live in such a fast paced world that sometimes it is hard to slow down and take the time to thank God for all that we have. I always seem to run to God when there is an emergency or when things are really bad, but when things are going good, it seems like I put him on the back burner until another crisis comes about. It’s sort of like a paramedic. We call them in an emergency situation and expect them to be there right away. But I have learned that God does not want it to be that way. He wants to be with us in every step of our journey and be there through the good and the bad. I want so badly to “let go, and let God” but in this world that we live in, sometimes I get caught up and it’s easier to just live by my rules and my agenda, not Gods.
To tell you the truth, I am tired of living my life this way. I have always had a strong faith and believed in God, but I never understood why I felt such a void in my life. Like something was missing. It is because I tried to live my life according to what I wanted. This lifestyle lead me down some very dark paths and in the end it was never fulfilling. I would always look in the wrong places to fill the void in my life when all I really needed was to give my life to the Lord. I am ready to see what God has planned for my life, because I know it is far greater than anything I have imagined or planned. The question I have always been wondering and asking myself “what is it going to take” has finally been answered. God has called me to the World Race because he wants me to let go of my plans and to live my life through him. I am more than ready for the journey he has planned.
It will not be easy, it will be one of the biggest challenges I’ve ever taken, but I know I will be okay. I strongly believe that God would never give me anything I couldn’t handle. I believe that the best way to grow personally and spiritually is by getting out of your comfort zone. I will be tested in many, many ways and will have to learn to rely on God in every aspect of my life. My tent will be my home, my backpack will be my closet, the spiders and cockroaches will be my roommates. If this is not getting out of my comfort zone, I don’t know what is. If you know me well, you know I hate spiders with a passion. Sadly, I think that this might be my biggest fear going into this trip. Maybe I’ll get over my fear of spiders, who knows what God’s got up his sleeve for me but whatever it is, I trust him fully. I cannot wait to touch lives and be touched by theirs through God’s great love!
"God is working in you to help you want to do and be able to do what pleases him."
-Philippians 2:13
Love Always!
