Some days are hard..
Some days I question..
Some days I don’t think I am good enough..
As I sit and read racers’ blogs, I begin to realize I have a lot of room to grow. Talking to my squad is one of my favorite parts of the day. It’s amazing how a journey that is 8 months away is already making us a family; we already have so much love for each other and I am so thankful for each of them. My heart is happy when I think about the journey that we are preparing to embark on together. But then there are the days when my mindset changes. On these days I get overwhelmed and I question both myself and my faith. I begin to feel unqualified when I see their ability to quote verse after verse and reference story after story.
These thoughts begin to consume me…“What are you doing? You are not knowledgeable enough to minister with these people. There must be someone who can do a better job than you.”
These thoughts lead me in a downward spiral. I cannot perform miracles. I cannot heal the sick. I cannot change the world. In all honesty I am not qualified.
But what does it really mean to be “qualified”? When we compare ourselves to Christ, no one will ever be qualified. This is what I do know: my heart is full of so much love for the Lord and that is ENOUGH. Because I have Christ in my life, I am loved and He will work in me. Knowing the Bible from cover to cover can’t save me, but giving my life to Christ can. So today I am excited to see what the Lord teaches me over the next few years. I am excited to dive deeper into the word and speak truth to those with whom we come in contact. Yes, there will be struggles and times that I want to quit and go home, but I am excited to adventure into the unknown in order to make Jesus known.
To my sweet friend Katie and the rest of my squad, thank you for accepting me and allowing me to realize that in Christ I am ENOUGH.
“I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing.” -John 15:5
Fundraising Update:
I am so close to meeting my first deadline of $5,000! Thank you to everyone who has supported me. This would not be possible without each of you.
My ADOPT A BOX fundraiser is still active. I’m asking each of you to prayerfully consider joining me on the journey. There are still a lot of boxes up for adoption. You can check out my last blog to see they numbers available. Once you have decided on a number, message me with that number and donate online!
**Everyone who donates will be entered in a WR related raffle! Names will be drawn towards the end of the fundraiser.**
