Yesterday (7/19/16), I did a prayer with my counselor and it was such an incredible experience. God definitely showed up!
Earlier in the week, I was having a conversation about God with Hayden, as we were standing by the ocean, and he explained how he heard God tell him to “come deeper” awhile back. When he said that, it kinda just stuck to me.
Backtracking to yesterday: my counselor started the prayer by reading Psalm 23:1-4 (The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing. He makes me lie down in green pastures, He leads me beside quiet waters. He refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths for His name’s sake. Even though I walk through the valley of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.) I was told to find a safe place and immediately, I thought of nature and being in the woods. I was surrounded by beautiful trees of all kinds, the sun was out, there was a cool breeze. I could hear the birds chirping and the water flowing pass me. Then she told me to tell her when Jesus appeared. As I was taking in the beauty of my surroundings, I saw Jesus walking towards me, crossing the water in front of me. He moved so gracefully and light radiated off of Him like the sun. Once he reached where I was standing, we sat down on rocks by the water. He began to show me all that He’s created. Shortly after, He grabbed me and told me to follow Him. I was also hearing Him saying to “come deeper”, but I began to question if that was from God or if it was just me thinking it.
My counselor began praying again and I kid you not, she said “come deeper”. MIND BLOWN!! Then I really knew that was from God and I wasn’t crazy.
Jesus and I kept walking through the woods and there wasn’t really a clear path, it was just trees upon trees. Walking with Him was peaceful, but after awhile I began to doubt Him and question where He was taking me. My counselor kept asking where I was and if we got anywhere, but again, we were STILL walking. I then asked Jesus where He was leading me and if we were going to get there any time soon; and all He said was, “why do you have such little faith? Just trust me. We’ll get there!”
After the prayer was all said and done, Shannon (my counselor) and I had a little discussion, thinking about the meaning behind what God showed me: it’s unreal. I’m still mind blown as I’m typing this.
Preparing for this trip has been a challenge and I’ve had to give God total control, even though it’s easier said than done. My faith has been stagnant and I’ve doubted God and His plan way more than I should. Funds haven’t been coming as much as I’d like them and I have roughly $7,000 to go while other members in my group are already fully funded. It’s been discouraging, but I know God is in control of this and I just need to trust Him and His plan.
I can honestly say that I’m at peace with where I’m at and I’m ready to go deeper in my relationship with God and really let Him take control of this situation.
