Oh how strong these tendons are. How desperately they need to rip…
So light up the sky and set a flame.
Burn this bone and tissue for I no longer want to be entangled in this sinew
that hinders my reaches for you."
-Bellarive "Tendons"
First, I've left. I left everything and everyone I know this morning in Bozeman.
The day that I so long awaited has arrived. And tomorrow, I will meet up with some of my squad for some extra training in Chicago and the rest of my squad will arrive on Wednesday. Then, later this week I will be on a plane to Guatemala.
I cannot believe it.
This morning at the airport I was left emotionless. This adventure has arrived and it is very surreal. I don't know what to feel.
But the further I get from home, the more excited I am getting.
God, in His initmate love for me is taking me on an adventure to grow in my intimacy with Him and the people of this world.
Wow.
This year has left me with God yanking me from my comfort zone into the unknown.
Yesterday was my last time going to my home church in Bozeman for the next 11 months. And it was incredible.
This song, that can be viewed at the bottom of this blog was beautifully reinacted by the worship team. I had never heard it.
The main line of this song is, "Rip these tendons, they hinder my reach toward You."
The ripping of tendons is extruciating and painful. I actually have experienced it first hand (too many times…). And the healing process of healing is also painful and (very) challenging.
This is what God is doing in my life. And what He wants to be doing in my life this next year.
As I sit in the San Francisco Airport waiting for my flight to Chicago, I am humbled and in awe of the God of the Universe. That He has called me on this adventure — that He desires to take me from a place of complacency to His divine plan.
I don't really know what this next year holds — but all I know is that God has called me. And He has called me into a process. A process of abandonment, brokenness, dependence and healing.
I don't get why He would ask me. But here I go — and I am willing to do whatever it takes to become more like Him. Even if it means a ripping of tendons, so that my reach for Jesus would no longer be hindered.
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LIsten, and let this be YOUR prayer!
