I am learning that sometimes when I get overwhelmed I shut down. Crazy, I know, because some of you might think I am an open book but I have got to be honest with you guys I am struggling.
I have been incredibly overwhelmed recently. Overwhelmed with fundraising, school and all around my day to day life. And honestly its really taking a toll on my faith and how I feel about myself and the plans the Lord has for me. I had an anxiety attack for the first time in months and it was scary, scary to see how the enemy is using this moment of weakness to really attack. Scary to see how I am so tempted to try to work through this struggle and my anxieties alone even though I know I can’t do it by myself. It has been hard and I have been hurting and that is the truth. And I know its a season of life and I know that God is faithful and that He will provide but I felt like I needed to tell you all that I am hurting. But also to know its okay to be hurting and that you can talk about it and that the Lord will put the right people in your life and that He will be there for you no matter what. Even if you feel alone our Dad is right there protecting you and guiding you. John 1 :5 says
“The light shines in the darkness, and darkness cannot overcome it.” Just know that whatever the enemy throws at you there is something bigger, better and brighter than what is happening in your life.
So this post is short and a little different but I kind of wanted to make a small list of things you can pray for if you’d like. I am grateful to know all of you, you are all so amazing and loved. Also if you want feel free to comment prayer requests if you’d like.
Prayer: Racers and protection from the enemy
Relationships to grow and blossom within teams
Motivation to seek God and growth in our relationship
Focus for the next few months before leaving
Most importantly the people within countries who don’t know Jesus. That their heart and ears may be open to hear and accept the Gospel.
