I realized that it has been awhile since I wrote a blog about what my brain is thinking and what I am processing, so…this is my attempt. I guess I started the month in Peru not too excited about being with the other three Squad A World Race teams. It seemed that at the beginning it took forever to round up all 29 people and get them to a different location. I also wasn’t sure how sharing a very small house with one bathroom with nineteen people would go over, but after a one week and a half of being here, I can honestly say that it has been great! We have gotten better at making faster transitions, have delegated responsibilities, and there hasn’t really been a problem sharing the bathroom (except when the water leaks out of the bathroom because we don’t have a shower curtain). It has been wonderful so far to minister with the rest of Squad A! I was sitting in church the other day watching people from Squad A lead worship and as I looked at them and looked at the people sitting around me, I was overwhelmed by the talent that resides in this group of 29 people. I love to see people step out and operate in their strengths. I am incredibly lucky to know these people and serve with them.
God has been doing some cool things in my life this last week. After this last month in Guatemala, I was crying out to God that I wanted more, more of Him, more of ministry, becoming more the Emilie that God wants me to be. I just wanted more. As I look back I realized that God has been giving me more and has gently been revealing Himself to me. I just needed to look for Him. I’ve always known that God speaks to us. I’ve done listening prayer before and believe that God has spoken to me, but I think most of the time I would question if it truly was God. This week God has encouraged me and affirmed to me that He truly does speak and that He is personal! I realized that God often speaks to me and I blow it off that it couldn’t be Him. I was also believing lots of lies from Satan that what I had to say wasn’t important, that it had already been said, that it’s too late to say it now, and some others. I was able to recognize those lies and rebuke them. Then on Thursday night, we visited one of the cell groups of the church we are working with. At the end, they prayed for us and we got a chance to pray for them. I asked God to speak through me. I felt that God was laying a specific girl on my heart to pray for. With the help of the translator, I prayed for this young lady. I honestly can’t remember what I prayed, but I prayed what I felt God was pressing on my heart and immediately tears were streaming down her face. I knew that God’s words were being spoken through me. I am thankful that I could be used as a vessel for Him to pour His love upon this girl. More of those incidents have happened this past week that have completely affirmed God’s “realness” and his “intimacy” with His children. As I continue to grow in confidence that God truly wants to speak to me and through me the more I am aware of His presence and the love He wants to lavish on others and myself. God is good and in this last week, He has released something new in me and I am SO excited to see where God takes me.
