When I started this crazy race I thought that I had pretty well conquered the art of giving over to God’s control in my life. Little did I know, I still had/have a lot to learn.
Over the past few months God has put several things on my heart to struggle and grow though; what I did not realize was that no matter how good my intentions were, I was doing everything in my own strength.
God stepped in and revealed my arrogance one night last week when my squad was together for a worship night. He showed me all that I had He had for me and instead of letting Him change me I would take matters into my own hands. I am so eager to grow and see God move in my life that I get ahead of Him and start trying to do things on my own.
After all this I came to a realization that deeply broke me.
Though I have changed in small ways over the last few months; because I have been doing things on my own I have cheated myself out of the blessings and growth that He had for me.
I long to be used, I long to grow, and most of all I long for it to be directed by God.
I am giving over.
My prayer is that God will use and grow me in the ways that He sees fit and that I will be open to His leading.
My heart is steadfast, Oh God, My heart is steadfast!
I will sing and make melody!
Awake, my glory!
I will awake with the dawn!
I will give thanks to you, Oh Lord, among the peoples;
I will sing praises to you among the nations.
For your steadfast love is great to the Heavens,
your faithfulness to the clouds.
Be exalted, Oh God, above the Heavens!
Let your glory be over all the earth.
Psalm 57:7-11
