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Dearest friends-

This morning has gone as usual. Wake up at 5 AM, very slowly get dressed and pack a lunch (hint that I'm officially a teacher) then head to Starbucks to prepare for the day (coffee + bible = fab combo). Lately, I've been doing a lot of reflecting and the World Race has suddenly become something that is scary and overwhelming.

Over the last few days I've been on the struggle bus of emotions. I've started to randomly cry at family events or when discussing anything taking place in the future that I won't be here for. Let's just say God and I have officially been going AT IT.

 

Reality has hit.

I love Lincoln and the community formed here. (Side note: Due to my parents divorce at 8, I have internally and unconsciously taught myself to NOT become attached to people. I am an expert at getting to know EVERYTHING about them while keeping a safe bubble around myself that often goes unnoticed). To my dismay, Lincoln and the people here have managed to pop my bubble.

My Young Life and high school kids have captured my heart. My roommates at the Catdaddy have become my rock. The list goes on and on….you get the picture. I can't deny it any longer, I will miss this place and I will very much miss these people.

Even shallow things have become sacred. I love Starbucks coffee (it's officially an addiction). I love Panera. I love wearing my high top Nikes. I love cruising in my car and listening to my music. I love crawling into my big comfy bed. 

 

I'm content not knowing anyone whose body has been sold for sex against their will. I'm content not knowing any children who have died simply because their area lacked proper sanitation facilities. I'm content not knowing any children whose parents have abandoned them so they live on the street, stealing and doing drugs to survive. I'm content not knowing anyone who was sent to prison, beaten, or put to death because they claimed to be a Christian. You might read this and think "DUH, me and you both sista!" Reality check: this is about to become my world.

I'm leaving in July. 5 months. 2 1/2 more in Lincoln. 2 1/2 in Kansas City. Internally I'm freaking out…."It's not enough time! I'm not ready!"

Remember how I said God and I have been going at it??? Well here's what he tells me….


"I've got you girl." > Seriously though. That simple. 

If we don't take a leap of faith, how can we change? 

If we don't surrender and trust, how will he take control over our lives?

Here's what I think. God's plan is the ULTIMATE plan. His plan will turn us into a radical individual aka the best version of ourselves. The version that is free of slavery. The version that can change lives. Satan doesn't want that. He will use ANYTHING to keep you from that plan. Satan will use doubt and fear to keep you where you are. My doubt is not from the Lord and I refuse to take orders from anyone but the Lord Jesus Christ therefore I will follow. I hope you do the same.
 
"For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord."
-Romans 8:38 & 39

Regardless of doubt, I will choose to have faith. May you have faith to do whatever wonderfully scary thing he is calling you to do. 


Your struggling sister, 
Ellie