My mind is a constant battlefield where the devil is trying to take control. The Lord is constantly fending him off and affirming His truth and love for me.
I am learning that in this first week here in Ecuador. We arrived Wednesday evening, got to our host home, Casa Blanca, and went to bed. Thursday morning, all the other teams went out to their ministry site, while we waited to be picked up.
And waited, and waited and waited.
We eventually got a message saying that something had happened at out ministry site and we wouldn’t be going.
So, we napped.
Friday morning we were rearing to go, but we got another message saying we couldn’t go, again.
Monday was the first day of ministry for my team, where we went to a church called La Luz in Carapungo and handed out fliers for advertising for the English classes that we’ll be teaching the next two weeks.
I have never considered myself a people person, so walking up to random people on the street and handing them paper is not my forte,
and so I didn’t.
My team is very outgoing, so for them it was easy (Overall, they handed out around 1500 fliers). Because of this, the first few days I was feeling really down on myself and my team. I didn’t want to be at my ministry and I didn’t want to be surrounded by my team. I was trying to make the conscious choice to fight for them, but it was defeating me.
I don’t know what changed, but something did. My mind was not focused on the negative, but instead on the positive. The positive that my ministry will be teaching English, and teaching has always been natural to me, and English which has always been my best subject. The positive that my team loves me, loves God and is constantly searching for more of Him and of me. The positive that my squad loves me, I love them. The positive that we have a good good father.
I just needed to get out of my head, and what the devil was trying to say to me, and listen to the Lord. My constant thinking and over analyzing is what is hindering me from the Lord, and listening to Him. This is something that I am actively learning.
