This week we did a team time on our fears of going home. The conversation about going home has come up more than ever since we got our flight itinerary home. Being me I’m fearful of what’s back in America. Although In someways I would love for everything to be the same, it’s not. I’ve changed and I know the people and the things I’ve left behind have too!
What was cool about the lists that we made was that they overlapped and we aren’t alone in our fears. I know that all of these are lies but they still are fears that I have. So because I don’t care what the enemy thinks and I don’t want to be controlled by my fears I’m going to speak them out. I will not let him have a foothold on my life. So with that being said here are my fears of going home.
That the race is over
Losing friendships that I’ve made on the race
Forgetting my growth
Relationships with my friends at home never being the same
Relationships with my family never being the same
Getting caught up in the “American Dream”
Not taking risks
Walking in old habits
Not finding community
Being a burden to my mom
Not having space to process
Not knowing what to do next
Losing joy during seasons of trial
Feeling unqualified or not accepted because of how I’ve changed
Not being able to explain the race to people
Regret about not being present on the race
Not stepping into a healthy lifestyle and going backwards
Getting comfortable
Not resting in The Lord presence
Settling for less than what The Lord has for me
Being viewed as a “Super Christian”
Hurting people
